she's back. but it doesn't feel so. i mean, no reply or no answering of calls? okay, she just spoke to me and i think everything's alright. but not with another. whats with forcing me to go somewhere i dont wanna go? if you have to ask why over and over again, it means you don't understand me ok? do i have to really say out? if i do, here it is, I AM INFERIOR. INFERIOR OF BEING SEEN/HEARD/SPOKEN TO OR WHATEVER SHIT. that's the real reason! get it?!

& omg, the other yaps and yaps abt this guy. this amazing guy. i'm happy for her, but what's with the yap? showing off? " you can talk to me abt your probs " i'll say thats bullshit. talk to you? is that what you mean by talking to you? answering your qns?

you know, i may sound evil here. but you have absolutely NO IDEA how long i've kept that inside of me. too long till i need somewhere to vent it out, HERE.

ARGH!

there were so many times i wanted to tell you that everything is going to be fine, cus i'm here.

i've never thought that creating this private blog will occur to me. but i guess this is the place where your thought need not be cautioned. and this is the place where you'll know the real me :D